Nowadays, feeling very siansian.
hahas. sometimes, very pissed with myself.
i hate to be wad i am.

when i see other girls ..
age 13-16 ...
they look as if they are 18-19 years old =.=.
i feel really very disappointed with myself la.

BUT ME LEI? 17 years old..
still look so kiddo.
haix. ya ya.. my height look like a kiddo.
everything kiddo.
i might as well go and die.
so fat summore.
slap me pls.
if by slapping me can let me grow taller,
i let u slap as much as u wan if u hate me!!!!
my parents are short.
they passed me their short genes.
which i don wan it!
wad can i do? i jump & jump..
NO USE?!
whyyyy whyyyy WHY?!
all my friends are so tall.
do anyone even know how envious & jealous i am?

if i grow taller, i believe i wont look fat at all!!
its all my height! i hate myself~!
fats, at least still can shed.
HEIGHT LEI? HOW TO GROW?

but until now, i still haven plan...
how and when i will die.

why dont i jus walk into the middle of the road ?
or find the tallest building in singapore n jump ?
if not, electric myself? or jus bang the wall hard and die.

i duno. exams are also in 2 weeks time.
wad if i fail ? how am i going to face my family & relatives?
now talking about face, WHY AM I SO UGLY TOO?

wad Stan said was right.
im so ugly and fat. thanks!
although u're one of the BLACKS tat i hate most,
at least u are one person who tell me the truth.
i take comments very seriously.
u're right by asking everyone to beware of me.
becos i dun even knnow wad im thinking.
becos of hating myself, i cannot concentrate on many things.
i don wan this !! i don wan it !!
why am i so free to think of these kind of things?
i should be studying!!! but i cant concentrate.

die die die.
die die die.
die die die.
die die die.
die die die.

who is there for me when im crying?
well, no one.
who is there for me when im stressed up with everything?
no one.
im so detestable. so hateful .
everyone dislikes me.

all i can do , is giv a smile and past my day.
i don wan to let my family to worry for me.

haix duno la duno la.
blogging also cannot help me much.
byebye.

MayGodBlessYou